PPD and Seperation Anxiety

What is PPD?

"Paranoid personality disorder (PPD) is one of a group of conditions called eccentric personality disorders. People with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar. People with PPD also suffer from paranoia, an unrelenting mistrust and suspicion of others, even when there is no reason to be suspicious."

With holidays coming up and a concert my ppd and seperation anxiety is becoming to much to handle. I can hide it very well around family and my husband, but i think im done hoding it in...

Tonight my husband and I are going to a concert (11/26/2015), I know that Theodore will be in good hands but I don't think I can be away from him for that long just not tonight...

I've been preparing my self for the holidays to keep calm but now that the holidays are here I don't want to go anywhere. All I want is to just cuddle with my son. It's tough not being able to go on dates or enjoy my family. Anxiety and depression comes and goes when it wants but once it's here I feel like it ruins everything that I have planned.

I am on the right track to getting better I do see a counselor, I don't want meds because I hear so much negative from people about the pills. My horrible thoughts that I would get are slowly fading. Now it's just me being sad all the time and my seperation anxiety. Ugh I just want to skip the holidays and just have it be my tiny little family everyday.

I hope that next month he will finally fit in his carrier so that way my son and I will be attached at the hip, so when my anxiety does hit we aren't seperated....